Thursday, December 17, 2009

Are Men (Including Gay Guys) Polygamous In Nature?  

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Last night we were having a drinking session at a friends pad (thanks to Don & Richard for accomodating us....Arnel for the booze and Kathy, Alvin and Jared for the company) well, a drink after another led to an intense discussion whether men are polygamous in nature.

Anyway, here's what I have to say.."by nature" is an ambiguous phrase. Do you mean men are meant to cheat or that they have that drive to, but they won't necessarily obey that drive? We also have to talk about whether this is confined to the sexual realm or if it includes the realm of LOVE.

SEXUALLY: I believe we all have the drive to. It's the animal side of being human. To want to have sex with someone. We don't need to follow it, though.

ROMANTICALLY (i.e., on the level of love): I believe this is possible. There are so many ways to love someone that you can actually love two people at the same time. It is in the nature of love. Again, we don't need to follow it.

Maybe I might consider that men are sexual in nature and not emotional. That men will never be contented to do one person for the rest of their life. Love doesn't have to be involved; they can love one person but their "innate urges" will always drive them to seek novelty elsewhere.

I think contentment is all in the attitude of the person (some people are never satisfied and some are easily satisfied). So, I believe it's not up to nature to determine whether we will practice polygamy


To sum it all up, all can I say is that I believe in the power of CHOICE. Especially in cases like mine, I love my boyfriend and it is more within my control than most things in life.

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Thursday, December 10, 2009

I would walk a 1000 miles just to be with you  

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Few years back, an unassuming message by the nick of "Mr. Black Russian" happened to pop up and said, “Hey, wanna meet up?” Mr. BR and I met in a chat room that we both are constantly logged in, started “dating online” before having met in person, and by the end of that year, I knew that he is the one.

Nine months went by and after some endless conversations and countless dates and visits we decided to put our relationship to the next level. It’s been three months and a half since I’ve seen him last, and although an end to this madness is in sight, the distance between us is sometimes unbearable.

Meeting and falling in love with Mr. BR has made my years the best of my life, but it’s been bittersweet. Our days together are amazing, but saying goodbye is always difficult. Missing him has led to more tears than all of my past failed relationships combined. There are days when I have a hard time going about my routine because I miss him so much—days when I wonder how it’s fair that our life together is put on hold because I work in another country.

And then, on those nights when I’m lying in bed, having cried every last tear, longing for the comfort of Mr. BR next to me, I can’t help but wish that I didn’t have to go through this—that “the one” also works here and not one hundred thousand miles away. Absence makes the heart ache, not grow fonder… old proverb my ass!

Tonight is especially difficult because it’s our two-year point. A night worthy of celebration for many couples; one that we’d normally spend connected via the internet—but alas, Mr. BR’s connection is awfully-freakin bad, and his cell phone doesnt have a clear signal. It just seems like there are nights when the stars are aligned against us.

I just keep telling myself that it won’t be very much longer.

This morning when I was thinking about this post, I had planned on giving advice for surviving a long distance relationship. Mr. BR and I have made it this far, after all. Despite all of my nay saying, we are happy. The distance is definitely a drag, but we’ve managed. We both have good and bad days when it comes to being apart; today wasn’t a good day for me. I do have some good advice, though. That’ll be coming up next.

Happy Anniversary, Hubby. I love you very much and I wish I was there with you :'(

Does absence make the heart grow fonder for you, or does it make it ache?

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Back to nature  

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I try not to be poetic with my words but sometimes they just came in, and it'll be a great waste to hush 'em away.... Wildlife reminds us that we are all “Nature.” Some people are obsessed with material things but they still yearn water and food. It’s our roots, we all come from nature, but we just forgot. I admit I love big cities, but as much as I love big cities with all the people, I love to escape to nature. Its been a while since my hubby and I went on nature trekking - and I miss those times. I just love the wildlife especially its smell after a heavy rain. Nature’s been and always will be my saviour when I’m feeling less than good. In nature, I find tranquility and peace.



Thursday, November 19, 2009

What I Miss ....as a child.  

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What do you miss most about being 5 years old?

The other day, while walking down the street of Manama, I saw a child, about 5 years old, who was just lost in his own world - singing, dancing, being himself, being free, without care or concern about what anyone else thought, or who might be judging him. I mentioned to my friend, “I miss those days. I miss being able to just BE, without care or concern of what someone else thinks.” I also shared that if an adult was walking around doing what that 5 year old was doing, most would consider him mentally unstable. Then I said, “When/where did we lose our ability to play, carefree?”

That’s what I miss.



Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Fun in the Sun  

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Hi Everyone! Im back! Its been awhile since my last post. Its just that I have been very busy with work etc... as you all know im back here in bahrain again. Doing the same old shit. but hey dont get me wrong, i love my job. teee hee. Even if my hubby's back in Philippines, sob sob, I still find the time to check on him every now and then. As a matter of fact, we have just finished chatting... so I would like to give A BIG THANK YOU to Skype.

On the other hand, my bandmates and I were invited to a get-together at this Island here in Bahrain called "Amwaj" The place is so nice. its like youre in Venice. Anyway, Ill be uploading the photos here soon. But for the meantime heres a group pic of my band in Amwaj Island.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I LOVE MYSELF  

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Sometimes, I get commented by friends, usually the straight ones that.. "Ui, sobra na yang pagmamahal mo" or "Hala, OVER na yan" or worse.."Hoy, mahalin mo naman sarili mo" Is there a length or measurement of affection if you really care for one person? I mean c'mon. I'm sure we already know the answer of that question by now. Yet, I'll try to elaborate on that last comment.

Of course, I LOVE MYSELF. We should all do.

The first, most important and best relationship each of us must have is our relationship with ourselves. After all, we are the ONLY person that we are each going to spend our ENTIRE life with. If we do not love ourselves first, then we can not fully love someone else, they can not fully love us, and our relationship will be full of holes.

These holes begin to fill up with ego, selfishness, need, possessiveness, competiveness, misunderstanding and a bunch of other relationship destroying things that happen when we don’t have a loving and enlightened awareness of ourselves first.

Once we each truly understand who we are and why we are the way we are, we then learn to like, love and appreciate ourselves and our individual uniqueness. In other words, we stand in our own light with self-knowledge and awareness. At that point, we will be able to have and experience unqualified, unconditional and limitless love with any and all other beings that we encounter in our lives. This is because, as we know ourselves, we know all others.

Doing so, without any form of judgment, gives us the opportunity to enhance our own and each other’s Lives.

Isn’t this why we are all “here”, and why we have relationships with each other, so that we can have and share our vast and varied Life experiences, to help each other awaken, learn, grow and evolve spiritually, sexually, emotionally? So, if you have had one, are in one or eventually do experience one, view it with love, appreciation and the knowledge that it happened so that you and your partner could each grow and become better and more evolved beings.

So I guess by now you will not ask me why, how, or how did it happen? Just embrace Life with LOVE.

Kisses to all! mwah!


Pierre+Angelo




Monday, August 17, 2009

Long distance relationship do exist  

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You see, I'll be staying away from my Hubby for an indefinite period of time and sometimes I get to thinking that maybe I'll lose my confidence in myself and will be very desperate even though we have very good communication. But then again, when I think of the immense pleasure once I am going to come home and see his smling face, it is worth going through the pain. Well, I made this post real special for a very good friend of mine, TJ, whose partner left overseas. I know I may not be able to comfort her during these times but I hope reading this might help.

Whoever first said "out of sight out of heart", and many are having a feeling that the intimacy between partners will be lost to a certain extend when they are separated by distance. Still we have to find ways to hold on to our long distance lover. Career can pull anyone across the globe provided the opportunity is grand enough. The durability of a relationship depends on the compatibility, understanding and trust between partners.

Any relation, whether short or long distance, need a sound foundation of trust. Nobody can carry on a relation based on doubts, deception and constant fear of breaking each other’s trust. It is very easy for lying and making innocent mistakes which can make you doubt since you are staying separate at different places. Naturally there is a tendency to be independent when you stay alone but you shouldn’t have separate lives even though you live separately.

When your beloved is miles away from you, remember you are not alone and your partner is also going through the same situation. It is not easy going through the lonely days and waiting for endless night. Sometimes, you may feel like running into the arms of your beloved and sometimes feel like you are waiting for nothing.

I think the secret is just believing in oneself and learn to trust the person you love and focus on the future and make plans to live together eventually. and yes, I believe that long distance relationship really do exist.


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Friday, July 24, 2009

I made a difference  

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Have I ever made a difference in my life?

As I traveled through life, I lived through all or most of this questions many times over, only to have each career thwarted and curtailed for the simple crime of being gay. I started out anew, summoning up resources I had within me, and some I didn’t realize I had, and each time was a new adventure, a new opportunity to learn and experience life afresh and wonderful in its glory, challenges and disappointments.

Eventually I came to realize that the original career path I had chosen would have led to a boring and spirit-numbing life; that would have been true of any single one I embarked upon. Instead, I have had a richer and more varied life, I have accomplished many more things, and I have made a difference whatever I did. None of this has been easy, and often making the changes and adjustments required much courage, but I think I am a better person for having traveled through life in this way.





Thursday, July 23, 2009

Facebook Addiction  

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On my previous post, I was talking about network sites and that I'm not familiar with Facebook in particular. Well you know what, I could've stayed like that. or never got interested on that site. because I got hooked. I got addicted to facebook (er.....till now). It felt like you have to make it your priority or else its your "Restaurant" or "Farm" business. hahaha. There is this one time that I have been staring at the monitor for 2 straight hours (no kidding) I just observed how my crops grew. I was also waiting for it to be harvested. weird huh? LOL. After that, I felt like my heads about to explode. LOL

Anyway, Im already sober and rehabilitated. so Im back with my blogging.


Sunday, July 5, 2009

Stainedheart's Random: Archangels Acoustic Covers  

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You know when you're just standing there, minding your own business, and then some song comes on from hell-know's-where, and it just reminds you of your awesome partner (or companion, if you're that way inclined). A few days from now it'll be another memorable day for both of us and I have ran out of ideas on how to surprise him. (silly me) lol. Since we both love music, I thought it would be nice to make a compilation CD for him. I made my own cover of the songs with an acoustic feel. And this time to make it more personal, I will be singing the songs. Please bear with the squeeking and etc... lol. Here's a list of songs that reminded me of my amazing hubby, Pierre. Now, I think it would be nice to share it with you guys. You can download the whole compilation here

Well, as a matter of fact, I'd love to share the details of how, when and why they hit me so hard, but I guess its way toooooo uber personal. hahaha. Just wanted to let you know guys that even now, I can't even think about these songs without gettin' all tore up (sometimes even at work, which can be quite embarrassing!). lol


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